Regret

Again, not much to write about this week. I'm just starting to be able to eat "normally" again. Today we went to the in-laws for a BBQ and it was the first meal I've eaten in 3 weeks where I got through it without feeling like I was going to throw up. I still hate eating SO MUCH but at least I'm able to again. So I guess I'm on the upswing!

We went for a walk tonight - the first real "long" walk I've gone on since surgery. Most of the exercise I've done up until now was swimming and Wii Fit. We only walked for about 35 minutes but I didn't get out of breath and my back didn't hurt at all. It was incredible! At least I know now that I can walk back and forth to the kids school without my back killing me next week! I plan to walk to pick them up until the weather gets cold.

One other thing that I've noticed lately is that my sleep is so much better. Before surgery, I would wake up in the morning feeling like a truck hit me and I would have to FORCE myself to get out of bed. But now, it's not a problem at all (well, some mornings I just don't want to!) I have more energy during the day too. So thankful for this!

Someone asked me if I regret having surgery this week. My initial answer was yes. It's not that I regret the surgery, but I regret having allowed myself to get to the point where I needed this surgery. I hate that I can't eat properly and that my body doesn't do what I want it to do in regards to eating. I know it's a phase and I can't wait for it to pass. But as I said in one of my first blogs, I wish I had done more to lose the weight on my own. I know NOW that I could have done it. Hindsight is 20/20!

Well I'm just going to make this a short blog and post my weightloss update. I lost 5 pounds this week!!! So that's a total loss of 58 pounds. I'm so happy to see a bigger number this week, but I know that's not usual. It's okay - I'll take it and look forward to more losses in the weeks and months to come!

Total loss: 58lbs