Last Will and Testament

Well, tomorrow I leave for Toronto and my surgery is at 8am on Monday morning. Today I had THE conversation with my kids, the one where I tell them how much I love them and how the doctors are going to do everything they can to take care of me. But I also prepared them that sometimes God decides to take people to Heaven when they have operations. This conversation brought some tears by me and Gabrielle (Roman slept through it - which is fine - he's too young to understand anyway.) And Michael just looked at me the whole time smiling and then piped up saying "you're not going to die, it's okay!" He's such a faithful little guy! I know some might consider my kids too young to have this conversation but I felt it was important to prepare them and let them know that if God did take me home, that it was okay to cry, miss me and wish I could come back, but be assured that I was happy in Heaven and will always love them. I asked them a few times if they know how much they mean to me and they know without a shadow of a doubt how much I love them! We then shared some funny stories to lighten the moment!

So obviously I'm hoping that God has a few more years for me here on earth, but with any surgery, there's always the "what if". I have so much to be grateful for and if I did go to Heaven tomorrow, I believe He is done with my work here on earth. HOWEVER, I think there's more work to do. I haven't climbed Mount Everest yet and that's one thing I plan to do before I die! BAHAHAHA NOT! I feel like all I really want to do is be a good wife, mother, daughter, sister, and friend and do everything I can to let others know about how much God loves them. That's it. I don't aspire to be the CEO of some big company. I don't aspire to be a famous singer (anymore! haha) I want to be able to walk through the Heavenly gates and hear God say "well done my good and faithful servant!" So because I can't talk to you all individually, I want to just put a simple message for you here. I want you to know that no matter what, God loves you! You were made for a purpose and God would love to show you His purpose for your life. If you are reading this and are an atheist, all I can say is I hope one day your eyes are open to the glory of God. And maybe you can someday speak to my husband, as he was an atheist once and now loves God more than anything. If you are someone who was once in love with God but have walked away from Him, I want you to know that He is waiting with His arms open wide to tell you how much He loves you still. And if you are a Christian already - please, do all you can to stand up for your faith and for what the Bible teaches. We are in a battle against darkness in this world and we need to fight!

Okay, here endeth my sermon. So in case I do kick the bucket on Monday (hey, gotta keep it light!) I hereby leave all my wealth to my husband! Don't spend the $7.58 all in one place!

Seriously, I look forward to speaking with you all after I get out of surgery and I plan to update Facebook as soon as I wake up in recovery and get my phone back! I will have my Blackberry Playbook in the hospital with me so I can stay in touch and will blog again when I'm well enough to do so.

And since I might not be able to post tomorrow, my weight update day, I will do it today. This past week I lost 6lbs so I'm down a total of 25lbs! YAY!!!!!!!!!!

Total Loss: 25 lbs